Georgia's World

..so moving on..

That morning, te amu na to.. Prepared naku sang anu ihambal q..nalista ko na para indi ko malipat.  He was texting me asking for forgiveness kag to start over..Although Im still scared kay basi indi na kami mag happy ulit after all that happened, I told him that we still have to talk it out since this is the only way that we can be totally healed.

Saturday morning, before I went to sleep,(kay call center ko, may duty gab'e) I still can't stop thinking. Mabalik ko or indi? Mabalik or indi? Pero deep inside, feeling q man japun magbalik.

I even asked for an advice from Mr. Francis Kong, if anybody here knows him, he's a motivational speaker with great words of advice sa love. I messaged him in fb and nakibot ko, he replied!

"God is the God of second chances. We all make mistakes. Is his repentance genuine and can he really put it in his heart that in the eyes of God and men he would not allow himself to commit the same mistake? If this is so then the experience will only make him stronger and you should never use this against him. Time and track record will tell and this is why we all need God's Grace and power to stand against temptation."

I was still in shock that the man I highly look up to replied, sa kadamo damo sang followers niya sa fb, he still has time to read his messages and give an advice to a person who he does not even know at all.

Te hibi hibi naman ko eh, but isa naman ni guro nga sign. I felt relief after that and I decided to give a second chance.

He came back last Saturday afternoon. He fetched me at home, siyempre suplada mode ang drama.. Kuno abi bitter ko japun. Haha.

We bought dinner and went to his house. We did some things, while I maintained my not so friendly attitude.. Siyempre dapat makita nya nga sakit man mu..

And then after that, we cuddled. I started asking him, "Ano gd to natabo haw? Na anu gd to haw?"

I was wanting him to tell me all the details. Why he did it, how it happened, was there flirting involved? How can we avoid? Do I have something wrong in me? I have so many questions..

And then he told me,

"Ginhambal ko lang to kay pirme na ta daan wala ga inchindihanay, kung hambalon ka katig'a man cmu.. Kay sulit sulit lang.. Natak'an lang ko sang amu to nga time kag amu to napinsaran ko nga para breakan mu nalang ko. Galing kay wala, gin forgive mo ko. "

In my head, 'liar! Ginlain nya naman ang storya hu. Ginahambal mu lang na to cover up your story para ma avoid nga storyahan ta to..'

I don't know what to belive in now. I am so confused. This is not how I expected our conversation to turn out. I was imagining maala-ala mo kaya... Isang tanong isang sagot.. We reconcile and cry and forgive and love again. My imagination did not match reality. So my questions... Ang gin lista ko.. Panas tanan. Indi naman q kapamisar..

He continued, "sang amu to na realize ko.. Indi ko man gali kaya madula ka. Din paku na kita amu na to hambal ko na forgive mo pa ko. Kag sang wala pa ko.. ga trisikad palang ta (magdul'ong ko cmu), ara ka na, sang naka motor ko, ara kaman japun biskan la ka ginasugtan mag angkas, upod kaman japun. Subong (nga naka work ko kag may car) ara ka man japun."

We laughed.

"Kung mangita man gd ko iban hapus man lang na sabton ko kay may ara ko subong pero kung madula ni bi. Ikaw halin pa sang una sang wala gd ko ginbaton mu man ko. Ara ka lang japun"

I realized he has a point. Sayang ang moments and the memories we shared kung i. let go ko lang ni..

So even if I'm not quite convinced if the original cheating story was true or not, I totally decided to forgive and forget.

If he really did it, then so be it. He learned his lesson and realized what he truly valued.

Now we're back together and he'll come home again next week. Continue ang happy moments. :)