I am Ms. Brightside

I always loved the song Mr. Brightside by The Killers and never thought it would be so comforting to listen to it over and over. I didn't realize this song is about being unfaithful. I always based my perceptions on the video showing drag queens dancing in front of old rich men. 

I never expected everything to crash and end up like this. I always felt that I have a perfect loving relationship with a person I trusted a lot. I trusted him. A lot. I was always comfortable being around him. He was a really sweet lover. I believed we had forever to ourselves. But I can now attest to every broken-hearted individual and say "WALANG FOREVER!"

Call me bitter. But the pain just stings.. the visions kept repeating in my head. I can't help it but make the actual situation even worse by overthinking. I've never experienced this for the past 22 years of my existence.. and then this.... Happy Birthday to me! (said in full sarcasm)

I do believe it was ultimately his bad decision for letting his instincts take over his conscious mind and not thinking and considering the consequences of such actions.

It's true that alcohol lowers your inhibitions, so yes, it can affect the "decision" to cheat. But it won't "make" you want to cheat if the thought wasn't already there in the back of your head. The difference is, had you stayed sober you would have bottled up the desire better.

If you’ve ever been cheated on, you know how awful it feels. Those seething feelings of anger, sadness and confusion, all mangled into this ferocious pit at the bottom of your stomach.

And, while you’ll inevitably still feel betrayed, the experience could serve as a wake-up call, a pivotal make-or-break moment in the relationship to figure out where you made a wrong turn and whether it’s even worth fixing.