Warped Perspective

My views of this world have now been distorted by all the lies and deception.

For real, this is much worse than being told he cheated.

I don't know what to believe in now.

I can't seem to trust him any longer. And for all that happened, I kept my mouth shut - still not knowing how to go out and express my rage. I'll just keep this burning within.

My smiles, I'm now learning to fake them. But soon after, they're followed by heavy sighs.

I'm just soooo confused. Much too confused than I ever was.

I was out of sorts and hearing another story from him left me disoriented.

It has simply established my trust issues. He might have told me the new story to cover up and avoid talking about what he told me at first.

Yet I'm not sure if he's telling the truth this time. If he did, it still pains me to think I am the one at fault afterall and he allowed me to endure it for the entire week. How cruel has he been.

He kept telling me he loves me, but what kind of love is it that demands of me to change?

Shouldn't he have accepted me for who I am at the beginning of the relationship and not look at me as a work in progress? I am stubborn and rebellious. Has he not realized that all this time? Had he changed his approach and inspired me to change, I would have willingly accepted and took the challenge.

Everything has now been negatively distorted in my mind. I can't find a ray of enlightenment in this current situation.

I can't find it in my heart to trust him anymore. I'm broken. More broken than I ever was.