It was just one of those YOLO moments where I have decided to choose my happiness over anyone else's.
I know you must hate me and might actually be calling me a bitch, that's fine. But please continue reading till the end. This will make things clear.
We only found each other's company comforting at that time when we were both broken from our relationships.
We're both single, or so I believed.
I knew it was wrong, even his family is against that budding relationship or whatever inkling of feelings we had for each other during that time.
Silly, and it was even laughable since nothing is really going on between us. None.. and we've made that clear with each other.
He is also best friends with my ex, which apparently is the main reason why they wouldn't like me for him.
A lot of complications are in place, and I knew that there's no point in fighting for it. He's an island away.. there's just simply little to no chance for any of it to move forward.
Plus, there's you in the equation. I knew he loved you even from the beginning. That was even how we began the conversation in the first place. We started off by sharing and venting out each others miseries and frustrations sang amun love life. And I can tell he's really affected sa inyo duwa.
And from what I learned you will always be that one person who's left a great impact in his life and that's just something that we could not overlook.
You're legendary.. you're the only girl who broke his heart and at the same time it's also with you whom he has found his happiness. His one true love.
I'm just thankful that I got to know him for a brief moment, it somehow helped me to move on and become stronger. He's a really great friend. Please take good care of him.
He's always been yours, I have no intentions of changing that or taking something away from you. You two have been through a lot.
You deserve each other.
Peach, I'm deeply sorry if you somehow felt betrayed, I know that photo came out as a surprise.. I would have felt the same if I were in your situation.
I know how it feels kung pano maagawan and that's something I'll never do to someone who is committed.
So when I realized everything's no longer the same, I backed off. I decided I should not continue pushing for someone who's no longer there. And when I saw you got back together, I decided to end initiating any contact. Hope this clears up anything in your mind. I respect your relationship.
As far as I could recall that same day when that photo was taken, I was still dealing with closure issues with Dexter kay nagpuli man sya... That was just a friendly hangout upod ang tropa.
(I even can't remember when he took that photo, I was too drunk to remember)
Sometimes we just have to trust our partner. Digging up for any evidence that will bring you doubt will only inflict damage not on him but on you. Everything will just pile up and it will eat your brain, and that's how you become paranoid. Just chill.
Anyway, if you still have any questions, issues or if something's still bothering you, I feel that you should talk to him.
I'm writing this coz I don't want any conflict especially with you kay may pinagsamahan man ta kahit papano..
Well I've come to think of it... I shouldn't really be sorry for anything. There wasn't anything.. All I know is that I have him as a really good friend. The only thing I did wrong is that I allowed for us to get too close that the people around just assumed otherwise. So that's what I'm sorry about.
His family assumed, the hell I know if his friends also assumed. There were issues that came up, I don't know how he explained it to them.
Ok man lang ko and I don't feel nga naintoan ko this time since I didn't really think of it as something beyond friendship.
