All Around Me

Chaos inside. Screams haunting from within me.
Am I still alive? 

I can feel this emptiness inside. There a huge hole that's been punched out. 
Lost. Like a restless soul hovering over the waters, with nothing to walk on and to have rest for a while.

As I am trying to focus on myself, the more do I get detached from who I am. Restless, could not find where am I now?

Have myself know and realize what's the point of surviving, From where I am and where I'm headed to each morning.


Sleeping at daybreak, being paid to stay up all night and get bored.

I wanted to doze off. I'd love to sleep for all eternity. When can I find rest? where can  i find rest.

So many questions, been trying to figure out how do I get myself to know


"WHY AM I STILL HERE?"


Sometimes I think that I am living for nothing, nonsense, Why am I still here? 


Shouldn't I be focusing on my goal?
Of what's to come in the future?